To my younger self…
Write a letter to your younger self…
Dear Younger Self,
There are so many things I wish to share with you. But it is just going to ruin the surprise of what life is in the first place. Maybe let me talk about adulthood, which is the most predictable phase of your life. I just spoiled the surprise of it being predictable. Never mind, adulthood is not as we imagined it to be. I wish I could say it is better, but no. So stop dreaming of wanting to grow up. So from where shall I start?
Okay, remember those history books that state that we will have flying cars in 2020, well you can forget about that. In fact, nobody is flying in 2020. It was reported that nearly half of the airlines in Malaysia were bankrupt due to the virus outbreak. Oh, yes, we are finally starting to live our lives like World War Z. The year 2020 is filled with masks, sanitisers, pandemics, and possibly loads of Dalgona coffees. As much as you wish to be a caffeine-free person. I am sorry I have disappointed you. Don’t worry, coffee isn’t as bad as you thought it would be, so is 2020. Despite months or even years that you will be spending your university life at home, those moments are not as bad as you think it is. Hence, accept 2020 with an open mind and a calm soul.
The second thing I wish to say is that don’t trust every human being that you meet. I understand that trust is the foundation of every relationship, but remember that not all relationships require 100 per cent trust. Just because they are nice to you doesn’t mean you need to trust them. Instead, take a step back and look at the bigger picture. See how you are being treated or where you stand in a relationship. If you are able to sense some kind of untrustworthiness, then move on. Now I can’t teach you what to do next. That is something you will learn in the progress of life. But what I can tell you is to always follow your heart and to remember what trust actually means to you.
One of the most important things that I wish to say is to cherish every moment in life. Life is too short to worry about trifle matters. I understand that your paranoia is possibly causing you to overthink certain things in life. But let me tell you something, you are going to waste a significant amount of time thinking about those things. Instead, spend your time with your loved ones such as your parents, your four annoying siblings, and also your great friends. Yes, don’t worry, you have friends in the future. Like genuine ones that actually are there for you, even when the going gets tough. Thus, embrace your present and worry about your future later on. Because I do not want you to look back in 20 years and regret that you never enjoyed those beautiful moments that were created for you.
I also want you to know that you are beautiful in your own way. Thin or fat, short or tall, dark or fair, abs or no abs, the world will always love you for the way you are. Therefore, love every inch of your body and carry them through this judgemental world with poise and grace. Never one day put your head down and feel bad about the way you look. Yes, much might say you are thin, flat, short. Remember that those elements of you are the ones that make you unique from others. And never never never forget to skip your stretching routines because your flexibility will be pretty useful in the future. Not in the wrong way. It is because you are destined to be a yoga instructor in the future. So keep those hamstrings stretched.
Lastly, never give up. I can assure you that life is not going to be easy, especially in adulting. From assignments to presentations, from relationships to responsibilities, you are going to face them all. These struggles are possibly going to make you sit in a corner and cry your heart out. But through the hurdles and tears, I want you to know that you are stronger than you think you are and definitely wiser than anyone else thinks. Therefore, believe in yourself, be confident in the decisions you make. If you are ever confused about reality, close your eyes and take a deep breath. You will soon find your answers.
Love,
Your older self
P.S. When you meet that hunky young man during your mid-20s, don’t let him go ❤.
